I have.
Its not the easiest thing ever, I will tell you! But the feeling that came with those tears were worth every second I was being watched by strangers. I would never see any of these people again, so what did it matter? I didn't have to explain myself to them :)
Even if I was asked to explain, I don't think I could! Even now (five days later) I'm just starting to grasp to fullness of my outflowing emotions!
It was Jesus. It was the God of the universe hugging me and whispering life to me. I was in the middle of reading a book that was perfect for the time. It made so many things click inside me. Then the iPod ear buds were delivering meaningful songs.
As I was reading, the song said "I will rise, when you call my name, no more sorrow, no more pain."
.... and everything in me just.... broke. I honestly felt so near to God in all His mercy and glory and splendor. He came near to me and touched me with healing... healing that has been needed for the past months finally came. Was it worth the pain? Absolutely. I feel like a whole new person.
If you're going thru hurt right now, keep praying and holding on to the promises of God!
"I have said these things to you that in Me you may have peace. In the world you will have tribulation. But take heart; I have overcome the world."
"I Will Rise"
Chris Tomlin
There's a peace I've come to know
Though my heart and flesh may fail
There's an anchor for my soul
I can say "It is well"
Jesus has overcome
And the grave is overwhelmed
The victory is won
He is risen from the dead
[Chorus:]
And I will rise when He calls my name
No more sorrow, no more pain
I will rise on eagles' wings
Before my God fall on my knees
And rise
I will rise
There's a day that's drawing near
When this darkness breaks to light
And the shadows disappear
And my faith shall be my eyes
Jesus has overcome
And the grave is overwhelmed
The victory is won
He is risen from the dead
